Title Page
Glossary
Korean Romanization Chart
Contents
Part One: Myself in Autoethnography 11
1. Autoethnography and a Question of Cows? 11
2. Prelude to 'Me' 14
3. Background: Growing up 'White' 15
Part Two: Overview 18
1. Autoethnography: What is it? 18
2. Myself Sifted Through the Research 22
3. The Physical Voice: How Important is Voice to Our Sense of Self-Identity? 23
4. Gay Marginalization, Social/Class Marginalization, Societal Marginalization in Korea and the Correlation to Teacher Identity: How self-esteem and the pressure to conform affects a teacher's personal performance. 32
5. Anti-Stereo-typing, Self-Othering, Identity Interment 43
6. Identity as a Foreigner in Korea in a Hyper-Digital Age 46
7. Prismatic Identity in the Digital World 51
8. Refracted Experience Through Culture: Between Soju Fueled Rants and Mr. Ko's Toe 57
Part Three: Emotion 61
1. Teacher as Mentor/Savior: Student as Avatar 61
2. Back to the Issues 65
3. Criticality in ESL Teaching 66
4. Affective Factors and Emotion Work 68
5. Gender 71
6. People Who Inspire 76
7. Mitzi in the Main Stream and Me on the Periphery 79
Part Four: Teacher? → Teacher! 80
1. Teacherese 83
2. Competiveness and Anxiety 85
3. After-Thoughts and For(ward) Thoughts 89
References 91
ABSTRACT 100